“So I kissed you one last time. One final kiss so that we’d never forget. One kiss so that if we ever lost our way we could use it to find our way back.”These Pictures of You
I used wonder if there was any truth to any of that because it seemed to be cheesy greeting card material. It felt like the kind of thing you’d hear someone say on one of those chick flicks your significant other has to force you to go to. You know what I am talking about, it might not be your first choice but you go because it makes her happy and that makes you happy.
Except sometimes life decides you need to learn that truth is stranger than fiction and like it or not there are things you don’t understand happening.
Sometimes you get to kiss the girl again and you discover the magic you remembered fizzled out long ago and all you have are memories of who you and she once were and that is all you’ll have. And that is ok because it is all you need and all you want.
And then sometimes you find out the magic never left and you feel like a monkey that fell out of a tree and bounced off of every branch on the way back to earth.
That is not really the prescribed method for climbing down out of your tree but it is an effective way for coming back down. Except sometimes you get scraped, battered and bruised and if the person you shared the magic with isn’t there anymore you stop remembering the magic and start focusing on the bruises.
Distance makes it easier to fool yourself into believing the magic wasn’t really there like you thought it was. That is the funny thing about the magic, without in person contact it fades just enough to make you wonder if you exaggerated the impact. And sometimes you want to believe that because if you really did focus on it you’d realize how much you missed and that is not always the most comfortable place either.
“Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson
There are those moments where you close your eyes and you say you believe with perfect faith that everything old Ralph Waldo has said is true because it would make life less complicated. You could focus on what you are doing and remain confident that all will unfold as it should.
When you look at the past you had no reason to believe that the echoes of footsteps you once heard would walk back into your present and that is exactly why you believe it could happen again in the future. Yet belief not rooted to something tangible and concrete can make it challenging to believe that possibility will turn into opportunity.
Moments like that are when you can see how life can be like a tennis match. The ball gets hit back and forth and you spend time chasing that perfect serve praying to god your return falls between the lines.
But if you could gain a bird’s eye view you’d see that more times than not your return landed in play and that you had a series of perfect serves of your own.
And maybe in those moments you’d silently think about the magic and wonder if maybe there was enough left in the moonlight to share one more kiss and find your way back home again.