He extended an invitation and wondered if his hand would remain empty or be filled.
There was an opportunity just waiting to be shared.
Some days later he sat in his chair and reflected upon dreams, not dreams in the general sense of the word but the dreams he had that week.
She had shown up in his dreams three times during the last week and each time it had been one of those way too real dreams.
Every time he woke up he could still smell and feel her touch. At least once she had given him a Cheshire cat grin and asked him how long he was going to wait to come find her.
“You told me to let go. You told me to stay away. But then again you also told me you’d never forgive me for not finding you sooner and made me promise to hold on. You said I should ignore things you said when you are angry.”
There was no answer and he didn’t expect one because he was awake and she wasn’t there.
He took a deep breath and asked himself what she would say and shook his head. If he went with his heart and not his head the answer would be to tell him she had meant all she said.
His head said things change and then said, but it is very possible.
“Maybe she is afraid that you would reject her if she made the first move.”
“Well, she is an idiot, maybe as big a one as the guy who is talking to himself.”
He shook his head and asked for a sign. Might have gotten one, but didn’t trust his gut as thoroughly as normal.
Overload, he was on overload and that made him a half slower and a bit more cautious but with a desire to be reckless.
Contradictions abounded and he felt like a stupid fool.
That made him laugh because it reminded him of past conversations. Once they had said they were best friends, did that ever really go away or change. Did it just fade or was it something that could reignite.
Once they had said they were best friends, did that ever really go away or change. Did it just fade or was it something that could reignite.
He missed being close with her and not just physically. Sometimes life was complicated and sometimes it was simple.
Maybe she’d come have a drink and talk about it.