Smarter people than I don’t spend any time wondering, worrying or thinking about what they think they know or feel.
They focus upon what they can see, taste and touch in the most literal sense of those things.
If you can touch, taste or see it, well you know what is or is not real.
I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream
I know you, that gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam
And I know it’s true that visions are seldom all they seem
But if I know you, I know what you’ll do
You’ll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream
Once Upon A Dream– Lana Del Rey ( Maleficent)
I hear it playing in my head as one of a multitude of songs and poems and try to ignore it.
Wrap myself in the safety and security of the tactile and concrete aspects of life because it provides more control and I crave that.
Crave it because other things are spinning in ways I can’t stop and it frightens me a bit.
But part of me likes the fear and chases the flame because it feels appropriate and right.
Because you search for a Shmata to wrap yourself in and remember the touch forever.
Everything changed and nothing will be the same.
Can’t say whether it is good or bad, only that it is and maybe that is the best way to look at it.
Words Are Insufficient
Sometimes words are insufficient which is why people like Whitman write things like “we were together, I forget the rest.”
Maybe that is all we need and the courage to follow our heart across the sea and through the woods.
Mine broke open wide so very long ago I cannot remember how or when. Sometimes I wonder if it has ever been repaired or if it ever will be.
And then I smile because of course it healed and of course it was ripped open again and healed again.
Now it is in a place and position I am not sure I recognize and maybe that is best. Maybe it is a reminder to step out of my comfort zone and test the water.
Out in the cold, searching for a Shmata never knowing if I will wrap myself around or be wrapped in it.
Some say secret worlds are best left alone and others say they exist to be shared and because they offer an opportunity for growth and exploration like none other.
Words just do it justice, so I let it be and stand on the balcony searching for a Shmata.
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