I know you listened to that song. I stumbled across it late this evening and listened to it many times.
Many times, but how many I can’t say. That is because the lyrics spoke to me.I remember when we made these promises to each other.
I remember when you told me you’d never forgive me for not finding you sooner. I remember you telling me to ignore the things you said in anger and how I promised that I would. I promised that I would always find you. I promised that if we were ever separated I would never forget you and that one day I would come for you.
I remember your anger and your tears. I remember the screams and the shouts. I remember the pain and the sorrow. We said what we said and did what we did but it didn’t change anything.
We are inextricably connected and have been for longer than we can remember. Neither of us know what to do. We went out separate ways and did our best to live our lives without the other, but it didn’t matter.
Because we seek each other out.
You are the first thing I think about and the last before I close my eyes.
And for what seems like eternity I have lived my life alone and apart. I ache and I burn. I dance in the fire and dare the flames to consume me.
In my anger and frustration I poke, prod and push you. I dare you to tell me you feel nothing. I dare you to walk away and pretend that our words were meaningless and our promises empty.
I dare you to tell me that your heart is full and your soul happy.
During the few times I have confronted you I have listened to you tell me that I am crazy, but you haven’t talked about being happy. I read between the lines and I hear what isn’t being said.
I watch what you do and ignore what you say. You are out there, waiting and wondering. You wonder if I meant what I have said and whether I will follow through. I get it. I understand.
I know things. That is not ego, it is my heart. Believe me, my head has told my heart to get fucked more than once but the heart wants, what the heart wants. What is and what shall be are yet to be determined.
So do what you do and say what you say- time will tell whether you find yourself saying “I love you” in person or just thinking it in silence. You can’t hide your heart any more than I can.
Time will tell if you shall be more than the queen of my dreams.
“I love you more than ever, more than time and more than love
I love you more than money and more than the stars above
I love you more than madness, more than waves upon the sea
I love you more than life itself, you mean that much to me.
Ever since you walked right in the circle’s been complete
I’ve said goodbye to haunted rooms and faces in the street
In the courtyard of the jester which is hidden from the sun
I love you more than ever and I haven’t yet begun.
You breathed on me and made my life a richer one to live
When I was deep in powerty you taught me how to give
Dried the tears up from my dreams and pulled me from the hole
I love you more than ever and it binds me to this all.
You gave me babies, one, two, three, what is more, you saved my life
Eye for eye and tooth for tooth, your love cuts like a knife
My thoughts of you don’t ever rest, they’d kill me if I lie
But I’d sacrifice the world for you and watch my senses die.
The tune that is yours and mine to play upon this earth
We’ll play it out the best we know, whatever it is worth
What’s lost is lost, we can’t regain what went down in the flood
But happiness to me is you and I love you more than blood.
It’s never been my duty to remake the world at large
Nor is it my intention to sound a battle charge
‘Cause I love you more than all of that with a love that doesn’t bend
And if there is eternity I’d love you there again.
Oh, can’t you see that you were born to stand by my side
And I was born to be with you, you were born to be my bride
You’re the other half of what I am, you’re the missing piece
And I love you more than ever with that love that doesn’t cease.
You turn the tide on me each day and teach my eyes to see
Just being next to you is a natural thing for me
And I could never let you go, no matter what goes on
‘Cause I love you more than ever now that the past is gone.”
Dylan is simply amazing, isn’t he.